Thursday, December 27, 2012

Christmas ....

It's been a hard few days. Mom is what made Christmas extra special. She made it wonderful and happy. Without her everything seems not so bright. I kept replaying her words in my head "Christmas is for the children. Always make it special for them." I mustered up every ounce of happiness and tried to keep our spirits up. It turned out okay. We ate and laughed and exchanged gifts. It was a full, full house. My Dad kept his chin up as well.

Mr. Man gave me the best present ever, Into the Pleasure Groove, the autobiography by John Taylor of Duran Duran! I'm a huge fan :) My Mom had bought Kiddo2's gift before she passed.  It was of course perfect.  She knew Kiddo2 so well.

Financially, we will struggle till Mr. Man gets paid. It's okay because I have no desire to shop or go anywhere. I will be listing the remainder of this month. New Year's will be spent at my Brother's place so minimal spending there. We've been eating/cooking a lot at my parent's house.  Everyone keeps bringing food and I'm trying hard not to let any go to waste. 

I am not sure how I feel about the New Year.  I guess its a bit bittersweet.  I just pray for strength and have been asking my Mom for patience when dealing with my oldest sister. Even in heaven we are still asking her for help.  Love you Mom :*)


Lena said...

I'm sorry for all you are going through. May the New Year be a new beginning for you. Hugs!

QandADebt said...

Thank you Lena. Everyday is a blessing and I am thankful I spent as much time as I could with her. I just hate that one minute she was laughing and joking and the next time I saw her she was gone. It's so hard to understand but I know she is in a wonderful place.