I Miss My Mom

I miss my Mom. Every day and all the time. I know that life goes on and it has but that does not take away the hurt. I remember my sweet Mom crying as she remembered her Mother even though it had been over 30 years since she lost her. I never fully understood what she was feeling till she was gone. I miss her asking how I am doing and wanting to hear all about my day. Laughing loudly at my funny stories or getting serious when she disagreed with how I handled a situation. Even as adults, she never hesitated to correct us. She completely understood that her role as a parent didn't magically end at 18. She would always weave her life lessons into stories about growing up with our hard to handle Dad. I never knew that full version of my father but my older siblings did. He still argued with her but it was pointless. Mom was our leader, our moral compass, our biggest cheerleader and our family's heart. Her job as Mom at times was thankless and unappreciated. I saw her tears when my siblings sometimes didn't fully appreciate her while she was on this earth. Don't get me wrong, we all loved her but we were at times wrapped up in our own lives and didn't realize tomorrow is not promised for those we love. We would all give anything to have one more day with her. To hear her laugh, to listen to her lectures wrapped up in a captivating story about her youth or to feel her hug that let us know we always would have someone in our corner. My Mom was the greatest Mom I could ever have. I'm sad she is gone but her voice keeps me going every day. "You can do it. Calmly, all things will get done. Always be proud of who you are. Good at times will come through life's trials. Always give thanks to God for what you have."

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