For the past few weeks, I did not know what to write. I finally decided to sit down today to write. Today is a good day. Life is starting to look up. The sadness of my mother's passing is not gone but rather, very slowly being replaced by the gratitude of having had such a wonderful mother for as long as I did. I still talk to her, I still see her in my dreams and I still miss her so much. But I'm fortunate enough to know that what I had was rare. A mother who loved unconditionally, who was totally selfless and who was loved by so many people. A lot of those people we never knew till now. Who come up to us and tell us how special she was and how special she made them feel. That alone fills my heart with happiness and helps ease the pain of her loss.
With this small movement forward, life with Dad has also gained a sort of rhythm. A couple of my siblings and I have a sort of schedule we follow so we don't leave Dad alone. Its now manageable and something we each have come to enjoy.
With the settling down of things, Mr. Man and I have begun to look at our finances again. Last Thursday, we signed the papers to refinance our home. The new percentage rate is now 2% lower which is a huge savings for us. We now have a 15 year note versus the 22 years that was left on our old one. Its a big step forward.
We have also not used CC for a couple months which feels great. Its hard but in the end its good knowing we can do it.
Lastly, we have booked tickets to fly to NYC for Mr. Man's little brother's wedding. It was paid cash so that was a HUGE accomplishment for us. We are hoping to make hotel reservations soon. Which will not be put on credit either. I'm very proud of us. Finally we are getting it.
I'm looking forward to catching up on all my favorite blogs, updating totals and finding new ways to pay down our debt.